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There is something that i can't explain in words!
haiz...first day of lectures after coming back from holiday and mst! everythings seem to change! however, i'm still me.....in then i was not changing.....i'm still laughing and chatting during lecture! but there is a feeling which i can't explain in words! probably, i do change in some way or others.there is something i can't explain in words! but somehow i got the feeling! suddenly feel that i'm a life after so long! probably, i do change somehow or others which people didn't notice! think people around me are changing somehow or others too! there is something i can't explain in words! when i'm thinking about my past, juz think that i'm too silly to follow wat u said! juz too silly to listen to you! too silly of me! really think that i'm juz too stupid! can't help! i juz can ignore my past and look forward to the future!there is something i can't explain in words! i'm juz to stubborn to admit it! i juz can't put the words in my mouth! propbably, i'm not too sure either or just simply i DOn't wan to admit! i juz simply ignore the goods and pin point the bads! mayb i was affected by my past! probably? i think so!there is something i can't explain in words! i juz wish i can change! to someone that is willing to open her ear and listen! i hope i can be a listen ear for others! however, it is a difficult task for me! it juz can't be helped, i juz can't concentrate and put my heart into! i wish to change! wish to change to a better person!there is something i can't explain in words! i juz wish i can hide behind someone and hide from reality! i know it is hard! everyone will like to hide from reality, don u? but i can't hide from the reality forever! it doesn't work! eventually i will need to face the truth!there is something i can't explain in words! i juz wish that everyone can understand me! i juz wish that no one will misunderstand me! but i know it is hard for everyone to understand even my friends! although i have a lot of friends! but which is the few that truly understand? i know it myself!there is something i can't explain in words! i juz wish someone can lead my way through the darkness! i believe everyone do have a darkness side! including me! juz wish there is someone truly know me from inside out! but who will be the one by my side when i need them and support me thoughout! i know it myself!there is something i can't explain in words! hope they will support me throughout!!! it juz can't be helped! i seem to be unfriendly at time! i seem to unreasonably at time! i seem to be "backface" at time! but i'm crazy at time! i'm talkative at time! i juz can't stop laughing at time! however the way i laugh seem to change! somehow my laughed isn't sound tat happy nowadays! i juz can't tell y izzit but i wish i can turn by the clock! but i know it is mission impossible!
# posted by pinkygal at
9:13 PM
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Name: Lim Hui Yi [林慧仪] 
